“Part of this role and part of this job and part of this family being under the pressure that it’s under, inevitably, stuff happens. But look: We’re brothers, we’ll always be brothers — and we’re certainly on different paths at the moment."

By Ian Horswill

Posted on October 21, 2019

Meghan Markle, the Duchess of Sussex, has spoken about being unable to live with the pressures of life as a Royal in this day and age.

A TV documentary Harry & Meghan: An African Journey was meant to be the story of their first official overseas tour, which took place in South Africa, with Prince Harry, Meghan and their son Archie. In South Africa the Royal couple focused on important humanitarian issues in a country still faced with gender and racial inequality and where life expectancy is among the lowest in the world.

Meghan Markle

However documentary presenter Tom Bradby, who said he had a 20 year friendship with Prince Harry, was able to ask both the Duke and Duchess of Sussex personal questions.

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In an emotional interview, Meghan Markle said she was “existing, not living” and was struggling with the pressures of being a Royal and the media scrutiny.

“It’s hard. I don’t think anybody can understand that,” Meghan Markle said. “In all fairness, I had no idea, which probably sounds difficult to understand, but when I first met Harry, my friends were so excited, my US friends were happy because I was happy. But my British friends, they were sure he was lovely, but they said I shouldn’t do it because ‘the British tabloids will destroy your life’.”

“Because I’m American I very naively didn’t get it. It’s complicated.”

Meghan Markle added: “I never thought that this would be easy, but I thought it would be fair and that’s the part that’s really hard to reconcile.”

Prince Harry and Meghan Markle

Earlier in Harry & Meghan: An African Journey, Meghan Markle spoke about the pressures of being a new mother and the negative attention from the press she received during her pregnancy and the first months after Archie was born on 6 May.

“Any woman, especially when they’re pregnant, you’re really vulnerable, and so that was made really challenging. And then when you have a newborn, you know. And especially as a woman, it’s a lot,” she said. “So you add this on top of just trying to be a new mom or trying to be a newlywed. It’s um …. yeah. I guess, also thank you for asking because not many people have asked if I’m okay, but it’s a very real thing to be going through behind the scenes.”

Asked if it “would be fair” to say that she’s “not really okay, as in it’s really been a struggle,” she replied, “Yes.”

“I’ve said for a long time to H – that’s what I call him – it is not enough to just survive something. That’s not the point of life. You’ve got to thrive and feel happy,” Meghan said.

“I really tried to adopt this British sensibility of a stiff upper lip. I tried, I really tried.

“But I think what that does internally is probably really damaging.”

Meghan was asked about the interest in her, not only as a member of the royal family but also of her experience as a woman of colour in Britain, in the US, and in being part of “the world’s most famous mixed-race couple”.

“I would hope that the world would get to a point where you just see us as a couple who is in love,” she replied.

“I don’t wake up every day and identify as anything other than who I have always been.”

Prince Harry admits disagreement with his brother Prince William

Prince Harry revealed reports that he was at loggerheads with his brother, Prince William, were true when asked.

“Umm …. part, part of this role and part of this job and part of this family being under the pressure that it’s under, inevitably, stuff happens. But look: We’re brothers, we’ll always be brothers — and we’re certainly on different paths at the moment.

“But I’ll certainly always be there for him as I know he’ll always be there for me.

“We don’t see each other as much as we used to because we’re so busy.

“But I love him dearly and the majority of the stuff is created out of nothing. But as brothers, you have good days, you have bad days.”

Prince Harry and Meghan Markle announced they had launched legal action against the Mail on Sunday newspaper for publishing a private letter that Meghan sent to her father and News UK (owner of The Sun) and MGN (former owner of The Mirror) regarding alleged illegal interception of voicemail messages.

In addition to the lawsuits, Harry spoke out against the British tabloid press for the “ruthless” treatment his wife Meghan has received “over the past year, throughout her pregnancy and while raising our newborn son” in a rare statement.

“Look, part of this job and part of any job, like everybody, means putting on a brave face and turning a cheek to a lot of the stuff,” he said. “But again, for me and for my wife, of course, there’s a lot of stuff that hurts — especially when the majority of it is untrue.”

“All we need to do is focus on being real, focus on being the people we are and standing up for what we believe in.

“I will not be bullied into carrying a game that killed my mum.”

Harry & Meghan: An African Journey will air in the US on Wednesday on ABC.

Prince Harry and Meghan Markle to leave UK for break

It has been reported that Prince Harry and Meghan will take baby Archie to California next month, to meet the US side of his family.

Los Angeles-born Meghan Markle and Prince Harry and Archie will celebrate Turkey Day with the former actress’ yoga instructor mother Doria Ragland on 28 November.

“The duke and duchess have a full schedule of engagements and commitments until mid-November, after which they will be taking some much-needed family time,” a royal source told The Sunday Times.

It’s believed the pair will stay out of the UK for about six weeks.